Going crazy. In the face.

So. As of Monday, I will officially be working two jobs in an effort to claw myself out of my overdraft. The one in the Weatherspoon’s kitchen, and then one 13 hours a week selling shoes in Shoe Zone in Lancaster. I am psyched to start the new job – I can do this job. I worked in Stead and Simpson’s for a year while I was in sixthform. The two shops are owned by the same overall company. The pay is less than in Weatherspoon’s, but it’s going to be less work. Working in ‘Spoons is, for lack of a better word, harrowing. Being on your feet for stints of up to 10 hours in one go just isn’t fun. And yeah, I know that work is work and it isn’t meant to be fun, but having a job that stresses me out as much as the ‘Spoon’s one wasn’t healthy. So getting to do much less of it is awesome.

The tricky part is going to be juggling what shifts I get where, so I’m not working a ridiculous combination of hours. If both sets of management could sort rotas out enough in advance it’d be great, but alas, I am yet to know when I’ll be working in spoons next week. If only I could get set hours, standard each week.

Hopefully, this means that I’ll be bringing enough money home to get out of my overdraft, and climb slowly into the positive numbers. Each penny I save brings me closer to achieving what I outlined in my last post.

I’m still looking for and applying for jobs, too. Ideally I’d have two part time retail jobs. The Body Shop are hiring at the moment – I’d love to be able to have that job and the Shoe Zone one and tell ‘Spoon’s where they can stick it. So I’m still keeping my beady eye open on the look out to see what I can spot. Anyone knowing of anything going, let me know!

In other news, things with Chris and me are going well. We’ve become ‘Facebook Official’ now, though we were officially a couple long before we got round to changing our statuses on FB. He’s away at Download until Monday, and I miss him. I see this as a good sign.

Been really spending a lot of time with friends from RocSoc recently, it’s great. Having two separate sets of friends and then seeing them merge as I invite them all to various things, like the BBQ we had a few weeks ago. I love seeing new friendships form amongst people that I like. The overlap of people is growing and it pleases me.

Time for a Jammie Dodger. Bye, folks.


It makes me angry. You won’t like me when I’m angry.

Sometimes, I see something that genuinely angers me. Most of you reading this journal will know me fairly well, and will know that I don’t really do ‘being angry’. But, believe it or not, it does occasionally happen.  The most recent thing to agitate me is this website:


Now, I consider myself to be  a very tolerant person. I accept that different people have different religious beliefs and that sure, a Christian may well believe that I will go to hell for having pre-marital sex and not going to church on Sundays. What I find it very difficult to accept, and the main thing that has me so riled up is the sheer close-mindedness of some of these ‘fundies’ (religious fundamentalists). Not only close mindedness but also sheer stupidity. Take this for an example.

"Are… are you now disputing the existance of DNA???"

Yes. DNA can never be proven. Evolutionists are obsessed with it because they always say ”chimps share 97% DNA with modern man” etc. That’s great, however you would then need to prove DNA is real.

This, surely, is bordering on nihilistic philosophy – "’How do you prove the chair you’re sitting on is real?’ ‘What chair?’". I, as a semi-educated and vaguely intelligent individual cannot begin to fathom how a person can reject the existence of DNA, ignore all the evidence that they are wrong, and obstinately use it as a basis to argue against evolution as a fundamental process. 

Let’s take another example from the website.

Josef Stalin, Mao Tse-Dung, Adolph Hitler and Pol Pot are all tyrannical megalomaniacs who together killed more than 100 MILLION human beings in less than 50 years.
All have one thing in common besides breathing air:
They held EVOLUTION to be a fact

Anyone with even a modicum of common sense can see the huge logical fallacy here, or is it just me? How can this person even consider drawing a cause-effect relationship here? Two completely unrelated things cannot be said to be linked in this way!

I could go on, but I imagine that you will all come to very similar conclusions as I have. It scares me very much that people like this exist in our world. I don’t mind their beliefs, it’s the blinkers and stubbornness that worries me, their complete lack of respect for anyone else’s views and beliefs. I want to put a message here about how tolerance is so important, but I’m too angry to articulate a positive sentence so I’ll leave it at that.

Argh :(

It’s been a while since I last posted so I thought I’d post now.


There you are.

Not much else to say really, just feeling pretty damn low. Didn’t think I’d ever be the kind of person who had to go to their tutors and beg for a coursework extenstion, but thats what it’s come to, and I love Biology – I really want to do the work but I’ve never had less motivation to get out of bed of a morning than I do these days.

I just wonder if I’ve got what it takes to get through this.

PS. Thanks for the awesome Yellow Sign event, any refs who might be reading this 🙂